When we got back to Gesundheit yesterday, we went on a hike. There is an absolutely beautiful waterfall, and the trees are like a towering wall of green surrounding you on all sides. I've never seen so much green in my entire life. It poured rain today, and the ridiculously lush vegetation suddenly made sense to me.
I feel strangely vulnerable here, and I'm not sure why. I think part of it is homesickness, which I didn't at all expect to feel, and kind of makes me feel like a wuss. It's strange because I wasn't ever homesick during college, so to feel it now is unnerving. It's amazing how prepared you can think you are until it's actually put to the test. The inverse is equally true, however. There's a part of me that fears that I won't appreciate this experience fully until the last day when we're all going home, and it's all over. But I guess worrying about that only compounds the problem. I'm just trying to remind myself to be here now, be present. Don't worry about what you are doing, or failing to do, or doing, but could be doing better. Just exist.
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